Jade GoodyJade Goody has revealed a dark time in her life.

It seems that her mum's drug addiction drove her to the edge.

In her new autobiography, Jade: Catch A Falling Star, the ex-BB star reveals her own brush with drugs.

Jade was so desperate to get her mum, Jackiey, to quit crack that she smoked it herself in an attempt to scare her mother into not using the drug again.

She said: "One day I sat in my room and thought, 'I'm never going to beat the drugs. They're always going to win'.

"And I can’t believe I'm admitting this, but a voice in my head said, 'I might as well do a bit of crack myself. I might as well go the same way as her. At least then we'd be together.'

Jade, who was 20 at the time (before her BB rise to fame), marched into the living room of the home she shared with Jackiey in Bermondsey, south-east London.

She said: "I wiped the tears from my face and walked out of my bedroom to the lounge, where she was smoking crack. I kept telling myself, 'Be brave, Jade'." Her mum refused to give her the drug but Jade didn't give up.

"I decided to show her how nasty and heartbreaking it was to see a member of your family - your own flesh and blood - killing themselves in front of your very eyes.

"I took some of her crack, put it in a Rizla paper to make a joint, and I smoked it.

"I felt dirty and disgusting. 'How does it make you feel watching me do this?' I asked."

Jade had hoped her mum would stop her inhaling or promise to quit drugs herself. Jade said: "I'd foolishly thought that if she could see what it looked like - and if she thought that her own daughter was about to go to the same dark place she was - she would put a stop to it.

"I couldn't even smoke it all, it made me feel too ill. I ran to the toilet, stuck my fingers down my throat and made myself sick, and sick, and sick."